This is honestly a really hard thing for me to talk about, but it has bothered me all my life and I really just need closure at this point.. All my life, my labia minora and clitoral hood has been different. Don’t get me wrong, it’s 100% clean. I’m seriously the biggest virgin on this Earth, have never had a boyfriend, never even kissed a guy until I met the most dearest friend I’ve ever had in my life. (which the story of him will come in shortly) I scrub the Hell out of my vagina every day in the shower, and have no odor whatsoever. But..it only seems to get bigger, and bigger, and I don’t know why. My lips are long, uneven, and dangle. I can stretch them both a good couple inches, and when I stand up, it doesn’t look like the normal little |/ shape to it that I’ve seen my all my friends have (or at least the ones I’ve seen naked, during changing, showering, etc) and that I’ve seen through the research I’ve done. Though it may sound odd, I’ve looked at many, many pornographic pictures/videos for my research, and not ONE of the girls had a vagina remotely close to mine, unless I specifically searched “beef curtains” or something of the sort. The pictures I see on Google or that I have in my past health classes don’t look like mine at all either, and even child birth videos that I had to watch in the classes, though all being unique in their own way, still looked absolutely NOTHING like mine. All the articles I’ve read about girls that have the same issue, everyone says it’s normal, and that most guys find it attractive or don’t even notice/care. However, I beg to differ. I’ve read some very displeasing articles about “roast beef” vaginas, and how disgusting they are, and how much of a turn off a vagina is if it’s not a “perfect little slit.” Many, MANY men were commenting, saying how much they dreaded the “oh so horrible meat curtains.” I’ve seen many television programs or comedy shows where they are made fun of, calling it the “predator” of vaginas. Not only that, but when I was in junior high, one of my girl friends told me it looked like I had a penis. Another time, I was hanging around with a group of my guy friends, and they were all making fun of those kinds of vaginas. I was bullied at a time with the nickname of “roast beef” because one of those guy friends saw me sit down while I was wearing shorts and supposedly saw my vagina, and said it looked like “roast beef.” He ended up telling the guy that was once a really dear friend of mine about it, at which he was quite disgusted as well, hence making up the nickname for me. He said some extremely hurtful things..which didn’t help my situation at all considering that he was my most best friend in the whole world at one point, and honestly the only person that I can actually say I fell in love with when we were friends. I’ve considered labiaplasty many, many times, and this whole “roast beef” nickname crap is really starting to make me want the surgery even more. I just..need help. I’ve never had sex before, and I’m quite nervous about showing my body to someone when the time comes. So is having large labia minora honestly a turn off? Or is having labiaplasty an even bigger one? Should I even be worrying about this at all? Should I go through with the surgery? Is there anyway to prevent my labia from getting any bigger? Am I alone on this..? Someone, anyone, with anything you have (besides rude comments) please help me with this issue.